Unfinished, Unending.

I’d promised this would be about me
All the wonderful things that’re a living reality
Dreams that stayed just that- dreams
Midnight terrors, shaking with fear & screams

I clutch at the last hanging thread
My life flashes through my head
In a matter of minutes from love
To undying fear, fearsome shapes above

It was to last; it just is the last
I’d never thought it’s come to a closet this fast
I go over the last few years
I’d wanted to conquer all my fears

I’d wanted to chase the wind, run free
Explore the world, find answers to this mystery
I only ran deeper into the trap
Lightning, rainstorms & thunderclaps

Promises made to the only man
I’d ever wanted to be; I had a plan
The world exists to take on & distract
Perhaps, a few wrong turns I’d like to retract

Or maybe simply start over
Hazy memories, a terrible blur
A solo existence, wrought with pleasure
Boundless triumph, beyond measure

A field of tulips that did not bloom
Criticism, rejection & deadlines loom
It’d have been but for that one sunny day
When I set out & got lost along the way

Of folly, friendships, successes & reprimands
Of pessimism, fights & unfinished errands
I’ll soar above, let go
Learn everything there is to know

I’d even wanted to pen down
Joyous moments & memories that’d abound
There were never any made, such is fate
And, now, I’d like to start over; it’s too late.