Of Nothingness & Beyond

An endless spiral of nothingness
And wishes abound with ‘God Bless!’
When you’re at that point of breaking
Breaking down, and your heart urges you to sing

Shattering into a million pieces
Each shard a reminder of lost bliss
Lost you say? It never was
Unattainable, really, that’s the cause

For you dared to dream
Beyond what can only seem
To be real, for in fact
it’s an illusion, a well done tact

You resign to one wretched corner
Silently, rocking back & forth you murmur
To yourself, the same things over
The worldly things that only were

Of infinite achievement, an illustrious wall
You’re that spot, unseen, you feel small
And only then does it dawn
upon you, you’re just a pawn

Caught up in a meaningless fight
That isn’t yours, you cannot be right
Four seconds of everything you can desire
Erupting into hallowed, hollow fire

Embers thrashing, where sparks flew
And you didn’t even suspect you knew
They’d only ever wanted to burn
‘Twas just a matter of it being your turn

And those moments of love
Memories, lost to fumes rising above
Into a world of beyond & away
Take me, me too, you say


There are no voices, only silence
They engulf you, clouds dense
Endless cries lost to the breeze
Slipping with utmost ease

Leaving you scratched & bleeding in the process
A beautifully arranged, labelled mess
Except they don’t match & never will
Such deceit is an enviable skill

You want it all over & more
Raw wounds & scathing sores
You decide to head out & settle score
It’s only not to be had, like before

For answers you beg & yearn
There were no questions, you’ll never learn
A promised treasure replete with a map
Brambles with gold beyond, merely a trap

And all you’d had to look for was
that little green book of those laws
That do not exist & aren’t followed
Waiting to reap harvests that weren’t sowed

The trees speak an unknown tongue
You swear, you’d known this when you were young
Out of apples & seas, drawing sense
‘Twas only ever untruths & pretence

You long for a non-existent escape
Down the tunnel, you gape
There’s hope, joy, a ray of light
It’s only luring you back to fight

It exists only ever to entice
Entangle, strangle you in a web of lies
Over a square, you engrave a circle
A rock forced down, smashing your skull


Rocks & bullets whir past
It’s the end, just the last
Banners of anguish unfurl
Red, soaked in tears, for real

You can catch them as they fall
Be brave, stand up, stand tall
Invent ideas, faith to follow & abide
A gust blows it out & aside

On a boat, to battle the tide
Oh! I’ll enjoy the roller-coaster ride
Death seems like an easy escape
Or an escape atleast, yet, it’s fake

You die bit by bit, a little each time
Words by the dozen, letters for a dime
Growing louder, until it’s a deafening din
Bruised, aching, you give your all in.